Grrr

I am so tired of having all these "friends" and having absolutely nothing in common with them.  And even when I find commonalities I'm still snubbed.  No one can talk to me beyond greeting me at a park, I hear crickets when I tell jokes (ok I'm NOT funny but c'mon give a girl a break!)  Then friends find other things to do when I have something important going on.  I watch everyone else's kids but when I need someone do you think it's easy for me to get a sitter?  NO.  It's NOT.  I'm so tired of doing everything for everyone and not even getting a polite smile or even a fake conversation.  My conversations with people feel forced.  I hope I can do it different next time.  I just want a few good gals I have things in common with and not feel like an afterthought.  There are a few of you that this doesn't apply to and you know who you are. I hope no one reads this but if they do I don't really give a flip.